Nala

Our relationship was doomed from the start. My family disapproves of you, but i refuse to let you go. Why do they have a say when i live alone? Loneliness was a factor during my stay in my first apartment, therefore finding you turned the woeful experience into an enjoyable one. Our first encounter could have possibly been fate, being introduced by my first friend in the complex. As i looked into those blue eyes, i couldn't help but to be engulfed with complete adoration for you.

Your timidity was a wall prepared for demolition by the appropriate personnel. As you became comfortable around me, you began spend all your days with me. Remember our first night? You were so nervous you tried to sleep on the carpet. I then approached you, & sat on the floor with you. As we sat looking at each other, you eased up & laid on my lap. I began to caress your back while telling you everything was going to be fine.

Eventually moving to the bed, you wasted no time putting your warm body against mine. Our eyes interlocked as if we've started something that we hoped would never end. We were up through the night enjoying each other's company, almost like the morning was not assured. You came close to me, & put your nose against mine; signifying that you trusted me. Ultimately, we slept comfortably through the late night, into the afternoon.

Anytime i think of your name "Nala," i can't help but to deduce the resemblance with Nala from "The Lion King." Both of  having blue eyes, nimble, & intuitive. Meaning "Gift;" Nala fills a void in me i never knew i had. It is safe to say, she is not going anywhere.

The language of love

Just when I thought the French couldn't draw my attention as voraciously as they did during my "Amelie" spiel, a new obsession surfaces. A woman by the name of "Julie Delpy".

The film series "Before sunrise", & "Before sunset" follows the story of an American and French student meeting each other by chance, and eventually falling madly in love. Julie Delpy stars as the French student. 

Julie Delpy's role in that film cannot be labeled as simply "acting", it was if she wrote her own lines in the script. Maybe this is just one of those roles one was meant to do. Her passion during her rants almost felt real, her breaking voice heightening every emotion. 

The hopeless romanticism her character inhibits reflect my insecurities. Her voice acting was remarkable, her "French influenced" English, enhanced my attraction to her. The way she spoke the English language with change of inflections, and rhythms, were enchanting. 

Her realism so profound, never adhering to the false promises of life. French women seem to be my weakness. I love their language, their minds, their being. The romance and zeal that is portrayed they all have. 

These two films have given me my outlook on French women. Let me bask in my naïveté and build an imaginary French romance. Below is a video of my favorite Julie Delpy scene from "After Sunset", please watch it!!!

Molded

Ecstasy permeates the atmosphere exuding from the Corinne Bailey Rae "seasons change" track. Her soft, seductive, soulful, voice resembling the enchanting Siren's call. Requited intoxication of this soothing melody urges my being to be at ease. 

The mesmerising enchantress able to vocalise in perfect pitches, and speak eloquently in any interview. Her soulful, ethnic edge so inviting, arousing an attraction to the fledgling writer. 

His newfound love for intelligence began to bloom into the "sapiosexual" being. Intelligent women are gems, the mind is a beautiful thing. 

Are we similar?

So enamored by the essence of love and its improbable covenant of self fulfillment, your exploration through life's inhabitants continue to assure you that the one you seek is nothing but a dream. Anyone you reckon is worthy of you continue to fall nothing short of imperfection. How ignorant you are to seek perfection when you yourself are unfinished. It became clear to you that your incomplete self could be made whole by the addition of an untainted soul. 

You're continuously told you don't know the meaning of "love" fortunately those words fall on deaf ears. As persistent as you are in seeking love, you are cautious not to mistake it with infatuation. Let those that choose to live in the moment run rampant, healthy companionship breeds positive emotions and creates better people. In retrospect, you just want to be better. Welcome to my world. 

Emotional Respite

We all have a specific method used to calm our eradic thoughts and wavering hearts. After watching the French film "Amelie", as unorthodox and impractical as the film was, it still had an enormous impact on me. As I watched this romantic comedy, I couldn't help but to be captivated by the acting, moral concept, and especially the soundtrack. 

Composed by Yann Tiersen, the soundtrack to this film is simply superb. In fact I'm listening to it as I type now. There is honestly no way I could explain the emotions that run rampant through me whilst listening. 

The 2hr long compilation have even urged me to attempt learning the piano. Each song is almost like a different emotion in itself. I enjoy the fluid mood swings they guide me through, and the peace I endure whilst listening. "Amelie" has become one of my top 5 favorite films not because of the plot or the actors, but because of the soundtrack. Cheers Yann Tiersen.

Desertion

What have you accomplished? I find it so comical the lot that lay claim that they're going to be successful, & well endowed. While their actions resemble weak minded "stoners," satisfied with minimum wage, & sporting their definition of "high fashion". Do not get me wrong, there are probably more than a handful of people that have attained success while getting high. I have no qualms against smoking marijuana, but if that is all you do & constantly proclaim that "you're grinding", then there is a problem. It kills me this issue pertains mostly to my black brothers. Just getting a minimum wage paying job after graduating high school should not be considered "doing good for yourself".

No, you do not need to go to college to be successful, but trust me mates that degree helps a whole lot. Foreigners that do not have the papers to even qualify for financial aid make it, & you're on your ass with your citizenship? You boys are so blinded by these girls throwing their bodies at you, you fail to realize she has more chances of being successful than you. It is not a surprise women exploit themselves for money, & there are always successful men out there that will change her last name.

No WOMAN wants a broke man, so i suggest whatever talents you can exploit to draw attention to yourself, i suggest you start now. Rapping i agree is a talent, but unfortunately 70% of you think of it as a ticket to wealth. Let me be the first to kill that dream. As much exposure as you think you have, you're competing with another guy from who knows where with a stronger fan base. Odds are he won't make it either. Music is a lovely outlet, but do not confuse a hobby with a profession.  

Frienemies

Friends!!, how many of us have them? Hopefully the lot of you. Well, lets reassess the actual meaning of that title you deem those worthy. Friendship is defined as "A person whom one knows, likes, & trusts.". Well it seems most have decided to skew that definition in a matter that benefits them alone. Friendships are supposed to be the secondary catalyst of emotional stability after family. Those that are trusted enough to be called "friend" are now armed with an arsenal of secrets supposed to be kept under wraps.

A friendship that takes a turn for the worst could be the difference between your recovery, & their revenge. For whatever the reason that caused the decay of the friendship, there are some that could take the action of destroying the image you portray. Everybody talks, but the question is, "do they know when to shut up?". They may slander your name & spew verbal attacks based on your appearance but when it gets personal i guess that's when it gets too much right? This should not be a problem if you hold your tongue & keep a close eye on those whom you share intimate secrets with.

Compare & contrast "friends" & "acquaintances". Acquaintances are not worth any emotional strain so keep them at a distance. Shake hands, hug, & keep it moving. The problem is most people want to acquire clout so bad they consider everyone a "friend". That is where your whole life is on everybody's tongue. Reassess your life people, & cut out the stained fabric. Not everyone should be your friend. Personally, i can count my friends in one hand.